Confessions of a Broken Girl

I'm standing behind you,
But you don't seem to feel my piercing stare
Or sense the distraught look I possess,
With tears brimming in my eyes,
Tears that I refuse to let fall
Because someone has to stay sane,
Someone has to be the example you never were.

Don't you see you're the antithesis?
Don't you see how you're hurting me?
Can't you hear my stifled sobs as I desperately try to contain myself?
Why can you not see my tears?
I'm using all my strength to keep them from breaking loose.
Because I don't want to upset you.
Because I hate to see you defeated.
Though I really don't understand why not.

You want my respect,
But that's five years gone.
Demand it all you want;
It's not yours to have,
And it may never be again.
Let's go on pretending everything's the same?
I mean, nothing has changed -
Except for everything.
If you think it will be okay, then,
Well,
You hit your head harder than I thought.

Next time this happens,
As I have not doubt it will again,
Don't expect my sympathy.
You don't deserve it.
All my tears are on this paper;
I have none left to shed on the likes of you.