Trouble Sleeping

I'm tossing, turning, thinking

About things I was forgetting

But they've come right back

To slap my face, unsuspecting.

When sometimes everything's a

Question and nobody has the answer

And I'm stuck inside these sheets

Underneath, between, below,

My limbs tangled up within a dream

Where pillows muffle any scream.

I am hanging in a spiderweb

Stretched tight across an abyss

By networks of tiny threadworks

A million separate pieces meant to

Somehow make me strong

In a delicate web that catches it all.

Too much is blowing with the wind

And my web I fear is breaking

And I can't find the threads to sew it back

Or even try replacing.

Get me out of here, for God's sake

I can't take this anymore

Because there's futility in hiding

And my subconscious overcomes me

When everything locked in the past

Comes creeping up behind me.

No matter where the place to rest,

Or the kinds of thoughts I try to keep,

Dark memories, unwanted things

Always find me in my sleep.