Unfinished Love Poem from March 3, 2019

You and I were the last on auld Doggerbank

Holding each other loosely by the fingers

As the entire world into the sea sank

Our souls the only two to linger

The waves crash, tremble, thrash

Our feet scrape and find firm sand

Rain and wind give us the lash

Our souls can last this dark night

On 

        .... but on the other hand...!

My mom keeps saying,

My mom keeps saying, I’ll get over it

But I don’t know how to

The last times I fell out of and back into

Love

Well, both those times were you

My mom keeps telling me to go out

And of course I do

I drink until i forget my

Love 

After all, drinking is how I lost you

My mom tells me to be patient, to wait

That darkness is a night to get through

But sleep is chased by thoughts of

Love

Haunted by tones of you

I dreamt

I dreamt

I dreamt you posted poetry

On that old website we all made

You read it to me

Love collapsed in an earthquake

Your voice in anger shakes

I wake, shaking

Gotta Go Fast

I lost you for the same reason
I lost my balance on that fucking mountain

Depression and anxiety
Free the body in turns
What was once adrenaline
       Over rocks and stone
       Over twigs and roots
       Over memes and phrases
Become adrenaline

Adrenaline
Adrenaline

Beautiful air
A lake and river passing
Bursting through the cloud

Adrenaline
Adrenaline

A little physical lesson:
you need the optimal speed to turn
Too fast
              the mountain has you
Too slow
              the drop pops you

When you fall the first time
Your hands get scraped
Blood pours out; the handle is red now
Your grip lightens
Anxiety heightens
Your grip tightens

You slow down;
Rocks rock you too fast
Stones stumble subtle
Twigs twitch terrible
Roots rock you too fast

Memes unmake memories
Phrases phase-out faintly

You slow down;
You're afraid of losing what you have
And that is when you lose it